I hate to pass this along:
I’d mentioned in comments that Walter was gimping again after responding so well to the Adequan treatments. As he was running low on his pain meds and I wanted to discuss either upping his dosage or pain management strategies with his vet, I made an appointment to get an assessment of his condition. During the general exam the vet said that his skin, coat and muscle condition was vastly improved. However, he noticed the same thing that had concerned me; Walter would sometimes walk like his hind legs were dragging, shifting most of his weight to the front legs.
So, we had bloodwork done, and a full set of x rays so we could see exactly what we were dealing with. The answer, unfortunately was not the one I wanted. As expected, they showed he has arthritis just about everywhere, in every joint in his legs, in his hips and even has back. Only his tail is arthritis free. Both the ACLs in his hind legs are shot. But we kind of already knew all that. The x rays also showed that he has bone cancer in his left hip. There’s already significant loss of bone density and my vet warned me that it’s only a matter of time before it breaks.
My vet is not optimistic about treatment for this. Walter is not a candidate for hip replacement due to his age and condition. Chemo or radiation might be an option, but it’s something I’ll have to carefully consider, again, given his age and condition. I don’t want to put him through a few months of additional discomfort on top of his current pain only to prolong it. My primary goal remains the same as it has been from the start, to give him the best quality of life possible and to ease his pain as best I can.
So. For the moment we’re switching him from Rimadyl to Prednisone and some other pain medication I couldn’t catch because I was crying. My vet is sending his x rays off to a professor at the U of M vet clinic for a different perspective. Walter is going back in for a biopsy just to confirm the diagnosis, and once it is, I’ll ask for a rough timeline and the signs to watch for that will tell me when to let him go. According my vet, he’s in constant pain. If we can’t give him some relief from it, I won’t be selfish and make him suffer any longer.
I would have called, but I can’t stop crying and can’t really speak coherently at the moment.
This sucks.
JPL
Now I’m in tears but I know that Walter already found heaven, when he arrived in his new home.
ruemara
Oh, Walter. I’m so sorry. But you know what? Walter is a fucking happy ass dog, living his best goddamned life right now. He doesn’t know, we do. We have the burden of knowledge. Just let us know if there’s help needed to make the time he has left as pain free as possible. Walter will do as dogs do, living happily until different fields call.
Sarah
Oh, Walter. Oh, John. It’s heartbreaking, but you still did good. You saved him, and you gave him a wonderful life. If this is the end, it’s a way better end than he would have had otherwise. I know how trite that sounds, but it’s true.
Karen
I’m so sorry.
joegy
Very sorry to read/hear. Pets mean so much to our humanity.
Schlemazel
nice to see 2017 is not going to miss the chance to pick up where 2016 left off. Sigh, this is not happy news. I am so sorry for Walt
Grrljock
Sigh. Poor Walter. I’m just so glad that you found him so he can experience love and happiness with humans and other dogs now.
Kristine
Dammit.
His life is so good now. I hope he’s forgotten all the bad. I wish he could know how loved he is.
What ruemara said about helping out if needed.
PaulWartenberg2016
I wanna reach through the intertubes and hug Walter right now.
This isn’t fair. He just found a home, just found some comfort in his life…
What can we do?
rikyrah
I am crying. Sorry Cole.Sorry debit.But, you all have Walter some very happy times after the darkness.You good souls saved him and showed him so much love.
pat
Poor Walter, but his last days have been a gift. Say goodbye before he suffers too much. Then the suffering switches to us, who are here to remember him and the extraordinary circumstances that have led all of us to this moment…..
Sandia Blanca
This is terrible news. That poor dog deserved better from life. Thank God for the love John and Debit have shared with him.
Frank Wilhoit
Prednisone will make him even happier for a while. Arthritis in most companion animals is much more difficult to manage than in humans. We have a senior scarlet macaw with arthritis in her hips that constrains her to a displaced posture and limits her mobility, but she does not seem to be in any distress. The vet said that there was exactly nothing that could safely be given her for this. But if it becomes a last-days kind of thing, it’ll be prednisone, and she’ll be all over the house — for a while.
Betty Cracker
Oh, damn it. Still, no matter what happens, y’all did good. It’s been amazing to see his transformation. What Ruemara said above is true: Walter will do as dogs do, living happily until different fields call.
My Truth Hurts
You guys saved that dogs life. For the last several months he’s been a happy loved dog. He will be happy and loved to the end.
No regrets. You did good. I wish it could be for longer but you did him better than anyone ever has.
pat
@pat:
sob. sniffle.
JPL
@rikyrah: A thousand times this.
Another Scott
I’m very sorry, debit and JC. You both have been angels to Walter, and you know he loves you for it.
Take care. Peace to you in the days ahead.
Cheers,
Scott.
jame
There is a version of hospice for animals, and it sure sounds like Walter qualifies.
Lizzy L
This is hard news, but John, debit: together you gave Walter the best damn life that an old abandoned dog can have. Debit, I know that you will not let him suffer. He will be loved and he will be happy, peaceful, and as pain-free as you can manage, for however long you can manage it.
Let the BJ community know if you need help, you know we are here.
Jim, Foolish Literalist
I believe he knew and knows he was loved and cared for in the last months of his life, and that good people found him after bad people abandoned him
Renie
so sorry to hear this but you have made him very happy; if $$ are needed for anything, i’m in.
a hip hop artist from Idaho (fka Bella Q)
This is horrifying. You both did a great thing for Walter and he’s had some fabulous months loving and being loved where he is. They leave such big paw prints on our hearts. Cole, I can only imagine how heartbreaking it is for you and debit.
Brynlyn Lehmann
I had my dog on hospice care after she could not tolerate chemo. We had a good year, steroids, pain meds and lots of tripe. I would never subject another senior dog to chemo or surgeries. Dogs aren’t afraid of the transition. They have all been good dogs.
ms_canadada
Oh, John, my heart is breaking for you and everyone who has come to love Walter. My late husband and I had a Hurricane Katrina rescue dog, a border collie we named Sally. Sadly, she died from cancer, which our vet told us was quite common for ‘Katrina’ dogs. (Up here in Southern Ontario, we had quite a number of ‘Katrina’ dogs, and virtually every survivor died of cancer.)
John, you done good, and please take care of yourself. You have given so many of us so much. Hugs from Canada.
AliceBlue
Debit and John, I am so, so sorry.
{{{{{hugs}}}}}} to both of you and Walter too.
Singing Truth to Power
There’s a theory that dogs live in the present rather than the past. Every walk is pure joy, every tree marked is a triumph, every meal is splendid, every pat on the head is heaven. Walter has happiness now. We grieve, but he isn’t doing that. We cry for him – and we are kind to make the best decisions for them when we do.
Mai.naem.mobile
Jeezus fucking christ. Fucking A. This dog can’t catch a break but Dick Fucking Cheney walks around with a fucking new heart. Life is fucking unfair.
debit
Thank you, everyone. My immediate plans are to move into the guest room on the main floor so Walter doesn’t have to tackle the stairs any more. Other than that it’s going to be a day by day thing. When it’s time, I’m going to schedule a home visit, so he’ll fall asleep with his head on my lap and me telling him that he’s a good boy.
JordanRules
I’m heartbroken. But the light and love experienced in this journey will always remind me of what beautiful things we’re capable of.
I’m so sorry.
trollhattan
Aww, damn. :-(
JPL
@debit: You did good, and we all love you for giving Walter joy.
Corner Stone
@ms_canadada:
Did the vet have a theory?
eric
This is my first post since election night. I hardly read the blog anymore. I come by and read this? Joy is true happiness. Unadulterated, unapologetic, unselfish joy. Such is the love of a pet, and such is the love you have shown Walter. Bless you and Walter. Bless you.
Brynlyn Lehmann
My hospice dog had a home vet. She was wonderful. On Dec. 22nd 2011, Felony was given an injection and fell asleep on the couch surrounded by her family. She passed with her bully stick firmly in her jaw. I am so sorry for you but what a wonderful coda to his rough life.
Sab
Remember a human year is seven dog years. So if you can give him only a year of peace and trust and companionship and happiness, from his standpoint that was seven years.
Pogonip
Damn it.
Can they get the cancer out if they amputate the leg? 3-legged dogs don’t seem to mind and trot around happily, if unevenly.
randy khan
Oh, dear Lord.
But, like everyone else says, Walter’s life is so much better than it would have been but for Cole and Debit. You have given him such a gift.
Jane2
@debit: Walter will go to the Bridge surrounded by love, and that is due to you and John.
pat
@debit:
We will be thinking of you. And crying with you. And thanking you for giving Walter the best months of his life.
p.a.
goddamnit. but you all did good by Walter.
Mai.naem.mobile
@Corner Stone: I would think it has to do with the chemicals used related to all the refineries there. I wonder what the rate of cancer in NOLA dogs is period,forget the Katrina piece of it.
debit
@Pogonip: His right leg could not support him. Torn ACL, arthritis.
Mai.naem.mobile
@Pogonip: it’s the hip not the leg.
SiubhanDuinne
God damn. That is such sad news, and like dozens of other Juicers I am crying as I write this.
Walter has had five solid months of love and care and happiness. Hardly anybody would have predicted that in early August when John unlocked his newly-bought house to find a mangy, emaciated, starving, dehydrated, abandoned dog. (By coincidence I was just looking at those earliest photos of Walter a day or two ago and thinking what a lucky fellow he is.)
And he is. He’s warm and well-fed and much-loved. However much time remains to him, a miracle occurred in his life, thanks to John and Debit. I’m so sorry at this news, and we’re all sad, but I’ll bet Walter isn’t sad at all.
{{{{{BIG HUGS}}}}} to Debit. And to you too, John. And scritches to Walter.
Danton
We just lost a 10-year-old black Lab at the end of October. Also due to cancer. I was torn to pieces about it. But a very wise friend who’s had dozens of dogs told me something that made so much sense. “We humans are so much more concerned with death than the dog. The dog doesn’t worry about the soul, heaven or hell, reincarnation, or anything like that. A dog just wants to be happy. It’s enough for a dog to die as you pet him. He knows you love him. And your love is everything to a dog.”
hovercraft
This sucks.
@debit: You have given him a wonderful home these last few months, and you should take consolation in knowing that when the time comes he will be surrounded by people who love him. You have done so much for him. Any animal would be blessed to have you as their caregiver. If not for you and John, he would have had a terrible end to his life. Take care of yourself.
Virtual hug.
O. Felix Culpa
Damn. Lots of love and hugs to Walter, Debit, John and the entire BJ community.
ThresherK (tablet)
You and debit have been wonderful owner to that dog. If this is it, please remember how you both made him happy and how lonely and emaciated and neglected he was when he was fiund.
“Harm reduction” in human form to animals.
Doesn’t make it easier, though.
Miss Bianca
It’s a story like that that confirms why I’ve been afraid to get my Stella looked at more closely, who is also a big old dog limping in all her limbs, pretty much. I’ve been trying to tell myself that as long as she still eats her chow in the morning and she can get up and down the stairs and outside to do her business, we’re doing all right, but I know better.
Poor Walter, poor Debit.
glory b
@Pogonip: When I walk my dog, we often see a guy with three dogs, one has 3 legs, he seems as happy and healthy as the others.
Oh Walter.
ms_canadada
@Mai.naem.mobile: That’s what our vet said. The water in NOLA was polluted from the refineries, etc. I wonder if there have been any long-term studies on the people who waded through that toxic soup, in relation to cancer, etc.
Manyakitty
@debit: Walter knows he’s safe and loved. It’s a big mitzvah to care for another living creature like you and John did with him.
Walter is such a good boy and he made the world a better place.
jame
Re: Cancer in Katrina dogs. Do you know that stretch of Louisiana’s nickname? It’s Cancer Alley. The animals breathe the same air and drink the same water (sans filtration or purification) that people do. That’s my theory, anyway.
Eljai
Walter truly is an inspiration. When I’d see photos of his happy face it always made me feel happy too. Thank you debit and John. Sending thoughts of support and gratitude for taking care of this special dog and for making the world a kinder place.
Chat Noir
I’m so sorry. You both deserve all the kudos for helping rehabilitate Walter and giving him the life he deserves in his senior days. Our fur and feather babies deserve only the best of everything.
debbie
I am so very sorry to read this. There are no words.
Emma
Damn. Damn. Damn.
But as others have said, Debit and John gave him a happy ending, loved and cared for.
debit
Since I’m cried out for the moment, I’ll share a funny Walter moment from his vet visit today. He broke the kennel where they put him after his x rays. Twice. He didn’t panic, just pushed his big old Precious Moments head on the door and leaned his entire weight into it and broke the latch. Walter will not be contained!
sapient
I’m so sorry, John. Best to Walter for his remaining time, and to you for your compassion.
satby
@debit: That’s a perfect plan debit. I did that for my Biggie and it was a sweet and gentle goodbye. Thank you for opening your heart and home to him and giving him the happiest days of his life. And of course we’re all here if you need anything.
donnah
John, I’m so sad about Walter, after the valiant effort to save his life. But John and Debit and countless others did save him. Sadly, it wasn’t for a long time, but certainly a better end than he would have met in the circumstances that led you to him.
We just put our dog Wendy down, just three days before Thanksgiving. She was fourteen, a shelter dog we rescued as a pup, and we were lucky to have her for the whole time. We knew she was failing at the end, but we had to know when it was right, and sure enough, it happened. There was no doubt, only sorrow.
You’ve done a wonderful job, and bless you for that. And bless Walter.
Manyakitty
@debit: His spirit remains undaunted!
Omnes Omnibus
Echoing everyone else. Damn. John, debit, and everyone who contributed to this project did a good thing. Walter has had months of happiness in his forever home (sadly, forever is not as long as everyone had hoped).
Lymie
@ruemara: that is exactly the right way to think about Walter. We all go one way or another and Walter is in good hands.
David Hunt
If I were to transcribe my first reaction it would just be a series of “fuck”s. I hope for the best.
chopper
well, shit.
Major Major Major Major
Still a happy fucking story though.
Tara the Antisocial Social Worker
So sorry, debit and Cole! Walter’s lucky that he found such wonderful loving care. Hugs.
toocanAnj
I’m so sorry to read this. So grateful to know how well he has been and will be taken care of for the rest of his life. John and debit, your care for Walter has been a beautiful act of love.
Lymie
@debit: perfect, you are doing everything right. Thank you for having the strength to do this final act for the old one.
Mary G
This makes me so sad, coming right after you talked about how good he was with the little kids over Christmas. He had a rough life, but he only knows he’s in heaven right now. And that’s worthy. So sorry, debit and John, that he may not have much time, but it was wonderful of you and everyone who chipped in.
I was OK until I got to the part about you sleeping downstairs, debit. Then I lost it.
cbear
Aw crap, just crap.
He’s a good dog, much loved.
Peace to Cole, Debit and Walter.
Elizabelle
Dear Debit and Dear Walter. Debit being the best person to see that Walter’s last days are comfortable and loved on as possible.
Can Walter use a doggie walker to make his moving around easier; take the pressure off his back quarters? Of course, it’s still a matter of time.
Best to you, Debit. You’ve done such wonderful work with Walter, and he certainly enjoyed his goofy Christmas hat and all the fun stuff he’s done.
Miss Dashwood
Oh debit (and John), I’m so sorry. Walter is so lucky to have the love and support from all these last few months. John saved his life and debit showed him love and doggie Nirvana. I hope the Prednisone helps for awhile to give him more time for love. Sending healing love to Walter, debit, and Cole.
eclare
I’m so sorry.
Scamp Dog
Sad news! I did get a bit of a smile on re-reading, about his tail being arthritis-free. He can wag all he wants, and that’s a big amount of how dogs show their emotional state. Keep wagging, Walter, as long as you can!
Julie
Coming out of lurking to say I am very sorry about Walter. Also to say that as hard as it will be, I would not wait too long, as bone cancer is known for being very, very painful. For my own dog with bone cancer, we waited too long and had to rush to the emergency vet for a quick goodbye after his leg bone fractured. In the last week or so the vet had him on the powerful painkiller fentanyl. He was still having some good days, but still, if I had to do it over I would err on the side of a too early goodbye. So sorry.
geg6
Just crying my eyes out.
Debit and John, you guys gave Walter the best months of his sweet life. That smile of his let us all know how happy he was to be rescued by the two of you. He will be that sweet happy guy to the end, I know because he knows that he found deep love after a difficult life. Hugs to you, John, and to Debit. And love and belly scritches to that good boy with the toothy, happy smile.
Now I need to go hug my dogs. And cry some more.
mvr
Kind thoughts for what they’re worth.
The Lodger
Know that you both gave Walter happiness for a few months. I only wish it could have been longer.
CaseyL
Heartbreaking news. It seems so unfair – no, it IS goddamn unfair. That sweet wonderful old mandog. (And poor Ellie, who will be losing her good buddy.)
But I echo everyone else: you and John gave that sweet old boy paradise. Not for as long as we all would have liked, but to Walter it must feel like eternal, forever joy.
I don’t know how dogs process or understand time. They can be as desolate when you’re gone for a few minutes as when you’re gone for a few hours or days. They’re as ecstatic and overjoyed at your return after a few minutes as they are when you return after a few hours or days. Walter has been ecstatic and joyful for five months. That’s quite a lot. A lot of people of all species, including humans, never get that.
Please please keep us posted. Please let us know if and how we can help.
{{{HUGS and SKRITCHES}}}
GregB
Sorry to hear this news.
You are a kind person and I am glad that there are people like you who care about animals.
Peace.
Elizabelle
@donnah: My condolences on your dog. She had a wonderful life with you.
Genine
This sucks! But I’m glad he found some happiness and love. I just wish it would last a little longer and with less pain. :-(
Gustopher
I don’t care, this entire Walter story still warms my heart more than it breaks it. The fact that people, knowing the long odds, do everything they can for this sweet old dog — he’s loved, and welcomed into the hearts and homes of John and Debit (and the hearts of the entire ballon juice community). When he dies, he will die a happy and loved dog,
And, I don’t think John or Debit regret anything, despite the heartbreak.
It makes me feel good about people. And Walter has a good home, for however long he has left, even if that is not that long. There are happier endings, but this will do.
Mnemosyne
@debit:
I will pass along what our vet told us when our cat Natasha was diagnosed with cancer: she said that as long as Tashi had all of her functions (peeing/pooping/eating/drinking) and still wanted to be around us and was not hiding, there was no reason to have her put to sleep, because she still had good quality of life.
And damn if that cat didn’t die on her own terms — less than 12 hours before G found her gone, she was still shoving Boris out of the way to eat.
Don’t get too freaked out at the thought that Walter is in constant pain and rush into anything — wait until he tells you it’s too much and he’s ready to go. He’ll let you know. A dog that still insists on trying to bolt out the side door isn’t ready to give up yet even if he is in pain.
Olivia
I am so sad and so sorry for Walter and you, debit, and John too. You both are heroes and what you did for Walter will never be forgotten. I don’t know if I believe in heaven but if there is a heaven, you all have earned it.
Mingobat f/k/a Karen in GA
This is horrible. I’m so glad Walter has a good home and will spend the rest of his days, however many they may be, surrounded by people who love him. If we think of quality rather than quantity, it should be enough — but fuck it. It really isn’t.
debit
@donnah: I am so sorry for your loss.
@Julie: And for yours. Thank you for your comment. It’s something I’ll keep close to heart when I’m tempted to give him just one more day/week/etc.
John Weiss
Goddamit John. My face is wet, somehow.
jw
Omnes Omnibus
@John Weiss: It might be raining.
Linda M
This makes me so sad. Poor Walter. But the love and caring from John, Debit, and this whole blog community brings a little comfort. Thank you for sharing. Thank you for loving.
delk
Very sad to hear this.
Mnemosyne
@Julie:
That may be a useful metric — the point where the vet says We’ll have to increase the amount of painkillers is probably the time to let go.
Hungry Joe
John and debit: Every good day you have given Walter is infinite in his doggie mind. He has been happy, he has been loved. What a gift. Thank you.
debit
@Mnemosyne:
Well, you see there are squirrels. :)
He’s sleeping at my feet now, probably the deepest sleep he’s had for a a few weeks now. I know because I keep going to the bathroom to blow my nose and he’s not following. I wanted so many things for him. I wanted him to go swimming in Cedar Lake this summer, to go on long walks along the Mississippi shore, to continue to terrorize the squirrel population in our backyard. But most of all I want him to be happy and not to have pain. And now I’m crying again.
laura
@debit: words fail. You’ve made a good dog’s days as sweet as a good dog could have hoped for and restored his faith in mankind. Wishing you grace in the coming days.
Gemina13
John, you saved Walter’s life, literally. And Debit, you gave Walter months of love and comfort. Without the two of you, Walter would have died a miserable, much more painful death. Whatever happens, in the end, Walter is going to pass in the arms of someone who will tell him that he’s a good dog, and deeply loved.
Give him a hug for me, too. Good boy, Walter. You’re a good boy. I’m so sorry this happened.
Juju
This is heartbreaking news about Walter. I wish he had more time with Debit and all her family, but I know this has been the best part of his life. Debit, keep him comfortable and love him while you can. Walter will let you know when it is time. Give him a hug and kiss for me, as well as all your other fuzzy footers. Walter will leave this world knowing what it’s like to be happy, loved, comfortable and well cared for. You’ve done the one of the very best things you can do in life. Treasure your remaining time with Walter.
Reformedpantysniffer
Well that blows. Sorry for Debit who has given the old guy so much love and a great home, and for John who got the ball rolling for Walter. Have been in this situation with my own pets and it’s never easy to have to make decisions on their care. My sympathies and best to Walter.
StringOnAStick
I’m so sorry. I wish he’d had more time to enjoy the paradise he found so late in life, but he did find it and that’s a blessing for him and for the people who love him.
La Caterina (Mrs. Johannes)
Thanks for sharing with us Debit and Cole. I feel really lucky to have known Walter, even if it was just through a blog. I keep thinking one day I will get used to losing pets or colony cats but it always hurts just as much.
I hope he has some pain free time before he goes.
Omnes Omnibus
As someone mentioned above, it is my understanding that dogs more or less live in the moment and do not have our linear concept of time. He’s happy now. That’s enough for him.
hedgehog mobile
*sobs*
John and Debit, you gave Walter a chance to be loved and cared for. I am glad he had that time, short as it may be.
MomSense
Debit, you and John and all the helpers have given him so much love. He has known the companionship of Ellie and that there are people who love and care for him.
Mnemosyne
@debit:
That’s the thing about animals, though — he doesn’t know any of that stuff. He just knows that he’s warm and safe and happy and that’s all he cares about, even if he’s achy sometimes (or even a lot of the time).
I know someone was talking about pet hospice a few days ago, and it’s definitely worth asking your vet about. I would take how Walter is today as your baseline and see what you can do to keep him there or better without increasing his painkillers. But IANA vet, so make sure to get an actual medical opinion!
notoriousJRT
I am so SAD to hear this. I love the fact that so many people came to the rescue of this wonderful dog. I hope there is comfort in the happy days you made possible for him – however many that may be. He is loved, and he knows that and will always know that.
stinger
Walter has had a happy life these past months. Debit and John, and others helping, have given him what every dog wants. If he must go, this is the way. Probably 100 others have already said as much.
Larkspur
@pat: Oh, this, pat. Thank you.
A few months ago, Walter was suffering and desperate and alone. None of that will ever happen to him again. His pain will be managed, he trusts his dog friends and human friends completely, and he will not be alone. When the time comes, he’ll leave gently, surrounded by loving friends.
khead
Very sorry to hear this.
Johannes
@debit: Bless you, Debit. You and John have done a lovely thing in a dark time. “So shines a good deed in a weary world.”
Darkrose
I know it’s been said, but Debit, you and John gave Walter love and care and while it’s way too soon to lose him, he’s not going to be alone when he goes. He’s a good dog, and y’all are good people.
RoonieRoo
Debit, we are all with you. You are not alone at all at this time. Not only is there an abundance of love here for Walter but also for you and everything you and Cole together gave him. I know that when it comes to that time, you will be able to make the decision that is best for Walter and everyone here will be with you to hold you, Cole and Walter.
TriassicSands
Poor Walter. What a terrible shame. He deserved better.
At least he has a loving home.
FlipYrWhig
Son of a bitch.
Cathie from Canada
@debit: Oh what sad news.
Years ago when we had to put one of our dogs to sleep, my sister said a very comforting thing: dogs don’t know how long they live, only how well they live. I have thought of that since, with every dog we have had.
You and John have given Walter a good life from the day he was found.
SgrAstar
Oh Debit, I am so, so sorry. Walter is so lucky to have found you. I know you can be strong for him when the time comes…after all, that’s what love is.
Yarrow
@debit: Oh, debit, I’m so sorry to read this. You have been such a wonderful pet parent to Walter and you and John did such a good thing in rescuing him. He has found heaven in your home. We were just talking about those kids zooming those cars up and down him, and he just loved it. He’s so happy. You are doing good no matter how long he has with you. Sending hugs.
Omnes Omnibus
Is there any chance that this could not be the last thread of the evening? Maybe something happier.
hitchhiker
Fucking ouch. I’m thinking of this whole saga — Cole’s early horror at finding this abandoned old guy & his exuberant descriptions of giant dog turds & the relay/handoff to debit & the happy good dog photos — and of course us juicers in the background being fed by the goofy goodness of it.
Thank you, debit. I’m so sorry you have to confront this so soon, and that you won’t get to see him splashing in the lake. Every time we have to say goodbye to a pet I tell myself that how much it hurts means how good it was, & that it’s worth it. Don’t feel alone; this crazy army is with you.
hellslittlestangel
That’s really sad.
I also want to say, apropos the story of Walter, that I think John Cole is a terrific human being.
Jay
Nature Vet, Arthri-sooth Gold, a tablespoon with every meal,
Helped Digger recover to the point he could walk on his own again, kept him with us another year.
Cancer, sorry.
I am sorry for both you and Walter.
They steal our hearts so easily don’t they.
Larkspur
@hitchhiker: I have loved the Walter Saga, and I will love it till the end – and beyond. It has been a great story and at some point it will turn into a wonderful memory.
Gin & Tonic
@RoonieRoo: If only we could make such humane decisions for our human loved ones.
trollhattan
@Reformedpantysniffer:
Yes, for sure. Walter’s coda will be a period of love and care without limit, likely for the first time in his life. Not to mention a girlfriend. Whatever fate awaits, the big boy will be in loving hands.
Comrade Colette Collaboratrice
@CaseyL:
QFT. Deb and John, you’ve done the right thing forever even though it can’t last forever. Dogs live only in the moment, and in all the moments he has left, Walter is loved and warm and fed and safe and happy in the company of his people. He has no anticipation that that will end and to him it never will. It’s terribly hard that it will end for you. Peace.
philpm
I have to post this so I don’t read all of the other posts and lose it completely. I’m so sorry to hear this, but John and debit, you did a great thing and gave a wonderful dog a few happy months he would never have had. Bless you both.
Omnes Omnibus
@Omnes Omnibus: I guess not.
Aleta
I’m sorry. I hope something good comes along soon for everyone. Tears from down deep for some dog I didn’t meet.
He made it out. He ate well again, drank good water. He had a great car ride. He hung out with the best people. He went to the beach. Has a good dog friend. Met with a lot of love at the vets.
Incredibly glad he has felt all the love and slept deep contented sleeps. What a truly great guy he is.
And they are all amazing, these animals. It’s amazing.
Major Major Major Major
@Omnes Omnibus: Unfortunate, isn’t it?
Another Scott
@Omnes Omnibus: Cole was still up on Twitter 30 min ago. Maybe someone can ping him there…
Cheers,
Scott.
Omnes Omnibus
@Major Major Major Major: Surprisingly depressing.
Major Major Major Major
@Another Scott: @Omnes Omnibus: Tweeted at him.
Omnes Omnibus
@Another Scott: Are you really just trying to annoy me?
burnspbesq
@Frank Wilhoit:
Prednisone is probably my least favorite drug in the world (it was part of my chemo regimen, and I hated every minute of the six days every month that I had to take it), but if it makes Walter’s life easier, I will hold my tongue. Walter should be able to live life to the fullest for as long as possible.
Another Scott
In other news, A possible solution to the Trump problem?
;-)
Cheers,
Scott.
(“It’s been done – Poe’s Cask of Amontillado“)
Another Scott
@Omnes Omnibus: Your snark is so dry that I often don’t know if you’re kidding or not…
But, no, I’m not trying to annoy you.
Sometimes stating the obvious helps encourage others…
Cheers,
Scott.
(Who expects AL will have something up shortly. Have a good night.)
Suzanne
Oh shit. Shit shit shit.
You know what, Debit? He is loved and cared for. You are giving him the best gift ever. Bless you.
Omnes Omnibus
@Another Scott: I will try to work with that. I may fail.
Gretchen
I’m so sorry this is happening. Please know that whatever you decide is in Walter’s best interests, you’re right.
Kathe
Not a poster, but a reader but have to comment on this. I’m so sorry to hear about Walter and he’s had such a lovely life since he’s been rescued and that’s a gift beyond price. When all is said and done, the last, best gift we can give our beloved companions is to help them go gently.
Gretchen
@Major Major Major Major: You’re right. It’s a happy story even though it ended too soon. There’s a lot of good in the world that came out in dear Walter’s story, and he got love and comfort.
Larkspur
@Omnes Omnibus: New thread.
Seanly
I’m sorry to hear this. Fuck cancer in people and fuck it in dogs. Walter’s last few months have been a wonder for him and I’m sure he knows how much he is loved. All this makes me miss my beloved and now gone companions – Ginnie (April ’10), her son Duncan (Nov ’13 – cancer), and Chula (Sept ’15). Now I need to get to bed and give some love to our current dogs.
seaboogie
@ruemara: What you just said. Perfectly expressed, in a highly imperfect situation.
FSM bless Walter and debit and John – and FSM bless us all. Walter has more “happy” now than he has ever known, and even though his body aches, he is thoroughly enjoying and appreciating his life – the sweet ole pup with the summer teeth.
Dog Mom
Such sad news for all who were touched by Walter’s story – He is lucky to have met his angels here on earth. I am sitting next to my 14yo weimaraner who has Cushing’s disease and Arthritis. Her name is Skye, but the muscle wasting in her hindquarters earned her the nickname Mrs. BonyButt. I am giving her extra pets tonight. @debit Like you, I am trying to plan for a peaceful end – She is not ready for intervention – it may not be soon or it may all change tomorrow.
My practical advice (from managing 3 dogs with chronic issues) – try chinese meds and/or herbal supplements, acupuncture or massage, and nutrition to ease pain and inflammation – in addition to the meds from your vet. I wish I could send one of my vets who does all this in addition to her western training to you for a consult. Sorry to bring up an indelicate issue, but painkillers often have constipation as a side effect – try to work some additional fiber and liquids into his diet. Green beans are a good choice to work in. Canned pumpkin is another.
Villago Delenda Est
Poor Walter. At least he’s loved, and knows he is. This is a comfort after he suffered for so long. Y’all, John and debit, did everything possible for him, and I’m sure he knows it.
Villago Delenda Est
@Mai.naem.mobile: Amen to that.
When Donald doesn’t get his way, it’s “unfair”. Walter has an infinitely stronger case for something “unfair” compared to the fucking 3 year old in a 70 year old body shitgibbon.
seaboogie
@debit And how does a dog who is in constant pain look so happy? Because he is at home, and he knows he is loved and cherished.
seaboogie
@debit:
Bless you for this debit…Bless you.
cckids
@debit: My heart is breaking for you. I hope you know how much your care of Walter has been a bright, shining spot of love in this crappy year for so many of us. I think you are amazing; a superhero among us. Peace to you.
NeenerNeener
What ruemara said.
Juju
@seaboogie: it’s nice to think that the last face Walter will see and the last voice he will hear is Debit’s.
Gindy51
@debit: That’s the best thing you can do. When they are in pain, you stop it as much as you can and when you can’t, you let them go to where it is pain free.
MelissaM
Oh, I’m sorry. But I also think, yeah, it sucks. But it’s the not the worst kind of suck – he’s now living the best life. Ease his pain, feed him burgers, and surround him with kids and their vrooming cars!
bookdragon
This is heartbreaking. I’ve lost two of my greyhounds to bone cancer. It’s more common in large breeds – they think it’s tied somehow to the rapid bone growth in adolescence.
Surgery rarely gives them more than another 6 months and with the hip involved, recovery would be miserable. Radiation will shrink the tumor and offer some pain relief, but a sudden break from low bone density will still be terribly painful. I’ve had that happen. My beloved Clark woke me screaming in the middle of the night when he got up to fluff his blankets and his leg snapped.
All I can say is give him the best life you can for the time her has left. The care and love you’ve brought into a life, however short, is something that can’t measured in mere time.
Andrée-Anne
I’m crying for Walter and for your pain, Debit. You, John, and the vets have done a wonderful thing: you have given love, care, and hope to an old mistreated dog. The last few months, he’s had a great quality of life, what with all the love that Debit surrounded him with. Hopefully, the painkillers will soothe his discomfort a bit, and, in the meantime, he’ll continue to be pampered and to hang out with his friend Ellie. Bless you for giving him joy and happiness in his old age.
Svensker
@ruemara: what you said so perfectly. But yeah so very sad and so very sorry
Drunkenhausfrau
So sorry. But, ditto what everyone has said above: Walter is living the best life now, and is loved. You and Debit did that. Bittersweet, but worth savoring.
Ruckus
Walter got something that a lot of animals, including humans don’t get, and that is a proper home, with friends and purpose. That he shines in it makes it all the harder, but life gives both the bad and the good. Much better to be good at the end than what he had. Good luck Walter, may your last days be kind and as painless as possible.
zhena gogolia
So, so sorry. I love you, Walter, and John and debit.
Barbara
So sad. Walter is living in the lap of kindness and love and your sadness at the prospect of losing him is a testament to that.
3am
If it wasn’t for you guys he would have died alone in an abandoned house or been put down by local animal control already. What a wonderful outcome that he spent the end of his life in such kindness and comfort.
3Jane Tessier-Ashpool (a/k/a Lorinda Pike)
@debit: Thank you, angel on earth. And John, the big angel. And all the other angels here. Thank you for giving Walter all the happiness and love he didn’t have before.
It is so worth it. It’s always worth it, even if the time might turn out to be short. When he goes to Rainbow Bridge, he will know many, many hearts go with him.
Walter, you’re a good boy. Such a good boy.
kindness
I feel bad for Walter but you know, this helped the big guy. He’s had what, 6 months of bliss as opposed to what he had had? Even if he only gets another 6 months, that’ll be one year of happy dog life. That’s good. That is something to be happy/proud of.
1,000 Flouncing Lurkers (was fidelioscabinet)
I’m so sorry to read this. But I agree with everyone else; even with this ending in sight; what Cole and Debit (and their enablers in the community) have done for Walter was the work of angels, and Walter knows this.
bluefish
So sorry to read this. So glad that Walter has had so much love and support these last several months. And that that continues to be the case. Much love to you all from far away. When the time comes, he’ll move on to his next chapters knowing he was loved and cared for — and that he was part of your family, your life. Not just knowing it, but feeling it — in his bones. All one can ask for — to know that kind of love, in the flesh. Being alone can be hell — you’ve given him a taste of heaven. Hope the pain can be managed on all fronts.
HeidiMom
So very sorry, debit and John. But he’s happy and loved, and that’s everything to him.
dexwood
I read this post before going to bed last night, but was too sad to comment. It was bone cancer that led to my Golden’s end 11 months ago. It had spread to his lungs and we knew at the first sign of that complication Dexter Dog’s time had come. We had been warned that might happen. He had been diagnosed 4 months earlier and we were given a grim choice, which, in the end, was no choice at all. Amputate the leg at the hip followed by a very aggressive course of chemo perhaps adding a shitty year to his life. Or, do nothing but keep him as comfortable and pain-free as possible. Without hesitation, we chose the latter knowing we were buying him “maybe two more months” assuming the leg didn’t fracture. Dexter was with us 4 months longer and enjoyed every scoop of ice cream.
I truly appreciate what John, debit, and this community have done for Walter, what continues to be done for him. I love Walter, a dog I’ve never met.
The Moar You Know
Bad news? Oh yes. But expected. John & debit; you guys did everything you could and then some. And it makes even more of a difference at the end of an animals life than at the beginning.
My last dog had just come to terms with finally having a forever dad when we had to put her down, suffering from what Walter’s now got, minus the tumor. Do I still think about her all the time and cry? Hell yes. But that doesn’t change the fact that at the end, she had a whole family. And that is what matters more than anything to a dog.
Walter has had a brutal life but he’ll leave it painlessly and with a full tummy and someone who loves him. That’s as good as it gets.
ETA: think I’m the guy who originally suggested Adequan. It gave our dear Hannah another year of life. If that’s not working at this point you’re probably done, I am so sorry to say.
J.
John and Debit, I can only imagine how heartbroken you must feel, but Walter couldn’t have found better care givers than the two of you. You both are heroes in my book — and no doubt Walter’s. Here’s to Walter living out his last days much much happier than his earlier days, and as pain free as possible.
HelloRochester
Prednisone is generally avoided by vets because it gives dogs diabetes over time. In an old dog, I’m not sure why they wouldn’t give it to them. He may improve substantially on it and I wish you the best; we had a dog with intractable pica he got secondary to eating a poisoned critter and we tried everything under the $un to keep him from eating socks, dog poop, socks (pattern) whenever his gut was upset. Prednisone prescribed by a young and compassionate vet gave us three years with him that we wouldn’t have had and it relieved his other -itis conditions as well. Best of luck.
LongHairedWeirdo
It’s awful news, for sure, but: you kept him from starving to death, alone, and unloved. You brought him new life and happiness.
It can feel like the fates just handed you the world’s biggest dick punch, and that’s okay – I’d feel the same way. But don’t forget that you ripped a good dog from the jaws of the worst form of neglect, and gave him a chance to be a good dog again. That matters.
sherparick
@SiubhanDuinne: This is so right. Thank you John and Debit. Walter is now a happy dog thanks to you both and will go on being a happy dog to the end. Hard to write this stuff through the tears.
Governor Jerry Brown also had some sad news regarding the passing of his companion, Sutter Brown. https://twitter.com/JerryBrownGov/status/815012316651524096
Phoebes
John and debit, you both have done a mitzvah for Walter and given others the inspiration to do one, too. You and Walter are blessed, no matter how short his time with us is.
J R in WV
I saw this just before I went to bed, didn’t read the comments. You guys are all so sweet, thanks to all of you for your kind remarks.
Debit, thank you for loving Walter and giving him the care he needed as a rescued and tragic dog. John Cole, thank you for saving Walter’s life and rescuing him from the hideous act of the former owner.
Julie, thanks for your wise advice in your first post. It is always OK with our cats and dogs to err a little on earlier rather than later. No long stories, but we have learned this ourselves. Our vet doesn’t do house calls (I don’t think, never asked) but they are very compassionate, have a spare room where they lay down thick quilts so you can lay with your big dog in your lap, just as you mentioned, debit. They give them a little bit of some kind of tranquilizer so they are very relaxed an calm, and then go away to give you time. It’s very sweet of them.
Best of luck to all the doggy folks, cat folks, etc.
And again, thanks Jon and debit for helping Walter along.
Thru A Glass Darkly
Gods dammit… This is *not* how I wanted 2017 to start. At least he’s had loving care for a decent while now. I wonder whatever happened to the hyena who abandoned him in the first place?
Wolvesvalley
I saw this last night, too, and was too sad to comment. Bless you, John and debit, and all those who contributed to Walter’s vet and transportation expenses, and this whole blog community who rooted for him. We wish we had had more time to enjoy his happiness in his new life. When I think of the dreadful death John rescued Walter from, I can only be grateful that we had this beautiful story instead of the horror we would have felt if John had found him too late.
Go in peace and love, Walter, when the time comes.
artem1s
so sorry to hear about Walter. He was a bright spot to follow and read about in this last horrible year. He truly is in his forever home and obviously so well loved. Thank you for sharing him with us.
daryljfontaine
Walter’s story is the one I tell when I describe the “pets and politics” blog I read so frequently, the one that brought me my kitten last year. John and debit did saints’ work in rescuing Walter and giving him a home. Clearly Walter is just too damn good for this wretched Earth.
Thank you for making his life better, even if this stage of it will end up being all too brief.
Irony: my BJ calendar arrived yesterday. I will remember Walter from those pictures, happy and loved.
D
jenn
Damn, that just sucks to hear. So glad, though, that he’s loved and safe, and THANK YOU for giving that to him. Your plan sounds like the best alternative of those available to you. Hugs to you, scritches to Walter.
DWF
Aw, geez. We just recently had to say goodbye to one of our lovable oafs, and it was so hard. I totally get the “crying so didn’t hear it” part. I wish nothing but the very best for Walter, and he finally found a place where he was beloved. That is a hell of a note to go out on. We love you, Walter.
Suezboo
Damn. I really cared for/about that dog. Would check every day for Walter posts. JC and debit, thank you from Walter and all the BJers who cared for him, for making his last months so happy and love-filled. What more could a good boy want?
I hope he will be able to get the peaceful, painfree transference he deserves.
NCSteve
I’ll just echo what a lot of people have said, and add one thing I’ve had to learn intellectually, if not (and probably never) emotionally. Thanks to John and his new Forevers, when it’s time, Walter will go as gently as we can contrive and knowing he is loved and valued as a member of a pack that cherishes him rather than dying of starvation and neglect in a state of lonely despair. And here’s the part that was new to me, learned only through bitter experience. The thing that makes “the Last Give We Can Give a Pet” a “gift” is the very fact that it feels so very much like a betrayal of trust. It’s the fact that we’re willing to accept that irrational feeling of guilt in order to save a pet from further suffering that makes it a gift. Knowing that doesn’t make it hurt less or make the PTSD-like part go away–shit, I’m choking up at the memory of the last time I had to do it, more than a year and a half ago just typing this–but at least it helps you fell less dirty.
Interrobang
Jeez. I’m so sorry to hear this, Debit and John and everyone. I know life isn’t fair, but dammit, that’s just not fair. At least he’s had a few months of really wonderful living after such horrendous treatment at the hands of scumbags known or unknown. I’d say pursue all palliation options ruthlessly. Talk to your vet about Metacam for the pain from the cancer and the arthritis.
I’ve done this twice before — my first cat died of atypical lymphoma caused by lifelong FIV infection. I went the aggressive route and had the leg with the tumour on it amputated, but there must have been subclinical mets, because the cancer recurred and killed him. I don’t regret doing it, even if I sometimes second-guess myself about the ethics. I also had a cat who died very young of a malformed heart leading to congestive heart failure. He got really sick, and I put him on every med the vet could think of, which gave him almost a year more of good life than he would have otherwise had. He died stalking something in the neighbour’s garden. (I would have preferred him to be an indoor-only cat, but he wasn’t my cat for the first year and a half of his life, and they left him outdoors almost all the time.) That’s about as good an end for that particular cat as anybody could have hoped for, but I still miss him (and Nero, my first cat) terribly.
Good luck with everything, and please try not to feel bad about making That Decision, even though you probably will.
LKH
My comments are not original: I’m so sorry to learn about Walter. Sending hugs to JC, Debit, and Walter
jill tasker
Cole: you saved him. You saved Walter. Because of you and the wonderful angel who adopted him, his death was not starving to death in an abandoned yard, but a peaceful death after enjoying a home with loving parents and a companion. This sucks so hard because Walter deserved more time in a home filled with love for him. But do not ever forget how much the love he got meant to him. It saved him.