Dear everyone,
I’m deeply sad. Yesterday morning we had to say our last goodbye to Tikka.
Tikka was a great cat. Gorgeous, best nose in felinedom, and utterly uncompromising. He was basically a one-person cat: I was his human. He tolerated my wife and son. He came to love, and near the end, draw great comfort from Champ.
And that was it. My sister and sister-in-law, both cat people to their bones, convinced there isn’t a Felis catus they couldn’t charm, bear the scars of their presumption.
He was my dear companion for seventeen years. He slept in his corner (and I mean it was HIS corner) at the end of the bed for almost all that time. (He would flip corners from time to time. Didn’t matter. Wherever he was, that was his.)
It was only in the last month or so that he’d spend most of the night in a previously scorned cat bed on the floor.
He kept me company through four-and-a quarter books (he was here through the start of the one to come). He had a raucus purr which he’d unleash pretty much whenever I petted him. That’s how I knew the end was close, actually. Over the last few weeks it would take longer for the rumble to get going react and sometimes he just would slump into a doze. He wasn’t a hugely talkative cat. He’d save his meow — closer to a yowl– for 4 a.m. and his disdain for the indolent servant who had not laid out a middle-of-the-night snack.
And he had that stare. Turned on you, it confirmed that you had been judged and found wanting.
We got him as a rescue when he was about 4 months old. He’d had a tough life up to then, the vet said, which helps explain his extreme wariness around almost everyone. He really could terrorize the presumptuous. He was a gentleman: he’d give fair and very audible warning before he’d swipe. But if you persisted in demanding that he allow himself to be stroked, well…it was not quite the arm-off-at-the-elbow but he left no doubt on your poor judgment.
That changed over time, though his reputation never did. He grew more mellow and approachable (not really cuddly for anyone but me) as he moved through his teens. But what I love about him still is that he was always sure of his own self and autonomy. He let me love him, but I never had any doubt that it was his choice, one for which I will always be grateful.
He’d been declining for a few months, but over the last week went downhill quickly. I took him to the vet–actually Angell Memorial, the big veterinary hospital in town–on Wednesday and they confirmed it. Too many different things were going wrong, with treatments indicated that contradicted what some other problem required. There was nothing more to be done.
I was able to take him home for one more night. I pulled out a mattress and slept (mostly not-sleeping TBH) on the floor. He spent much of the night in his usual position–curled up against my left leg. When we got up around 7:30, he was able to tolerate my pets and then began to purr; we stayed like that for quite a while. Then I went to get dressed and he mustered the strength to climb down the stairs to find one of his favorite sun patches, the one on the welcome mat by the front door. I curled up with him again and once again he started to purr. Not the idling diesel engine sound of his youth; this was more of a wheeze-and-rattle. But it was there.
After another while–maybe half an hour–the hospice vet arrived. She was sweet and very compassionate and talked us through what was going to happen. In time, she injected Tikka with the first dose. I was holding him, and started to cry. It went fast–he was so tired and so ready. In a couple of minutes the second medication went in and in no more than a minute or so he was gone.
I miss him terribly. I’m tearing up a little as I type this. He–up to and on his last day–curl in his bed just behind my writing desk. I’d spend every day with him, stopping for a visit every time something in the book needed a few paces to work out. We’d hang and chat and then I’d get back to the keyboard. I’ve been looking over there all day today.
I know his powerful gaze and occasional goofiness gladdened people here. I was privileged to spend almost two decades under his withering scrutiny.
Tikka was a great cat.
PS: Champ is perplexed and deeply needy. She may kill me yet–she keeps undercutting my ankles as I walk around the house. She’s never known a home without another cat, having come to us straight from her birth litter. And yes: we will get another cat, and probably soon. But not just yet.
Goodbye, friend.
Baud
Oh no. This is the hardest news. I’m so sorry.
WaterGirl
Sobbing. I am so sorry, Tom.
TEL
I’m so sorry. You were a great cat Dad, Tom – all the way to the end.
dmsilev
So sorry to read that. It’s always a hard painful time.
Anne Marie
Condolences from a lurker who has appreciated Tikka from afar for many years. Best wishes to the household.
Mike Furlan
So sorry. I miss my two cats who are gone and treasure every day with the current boss of the house.
Gorf
Sorry to hear this. He was magnificent.
geg6
Oh no, Tom! Tikka was such a majestic kitty. I’m so sorry. My thoughts are with you, your family and sweet Champ. {{hugs}}
shefrajo
It is wonderful when a cat chooses you as their person, and hard to lose them. My sincerest condolences on the loss of your cat friend.
trollhattan
Aww, farewell little fella. My condolences to you Tom, and all of Tikka’s subjects.
Miss Bianca
Oh, Tikka! I am tearing up too. I am sure he would have put me in my place right smartly for trying to pet him, but I loved him anyway from afar.
So sorry, Tom. So sorry for Champ, too!
kissel
I’m so sorry for you. Thank you for sharing, it was very touching to hear Tikka’s story.
brendancalling
Oh man. I’m so sorry. what a handsome boy, he has a big nose just like my cat. Safe travels, Tikka!
...now I try to be amused
I’m so sorry, Tom. You were a good human for Tikka.
eldorado
godspeed tikka
FastEdD
“I won’t cry because it’s over, I’ll smile because it was.” -a philosopher friend of mine. It is a comforting thought, but it is so hard to do. They are family.
narya
Tearing up along with you . . . what a lovely companion, and what a lovely remembrance.
pieceofpeace
I’m so very sorry for the loss of Tikka and the pain you’re feeling. How fortunate that you shared life so intimately, so joyful.
Omnes Omnibus
Sorry.
sab
He looks a lot like my late lamented StarScream, who also had a 4 am yowl, hence the name.
hedgehog the occasional commenter
I am so sorry. Tikka was a lovely cat. Thank you for sharing him with us. Gonna give my four voids extra hugs today.
Doc Sardonic
So sorry Tom. The loss of a soul cat is a hard thing to bear, but don’t wait too long to get a companion for Champ because grief and loneliness is hard on them in ways we don’t necessarily see.
MagdaInBlack
I’m so sorry, Tom.
I’m kinda weepy here at work from reading this.
They Call Me Noni
You have my most heartfelt and deepest sympathies. In 2022 and then again in 2023 we had to have our beloved cats put down. Tootsie, a tux, we picked up as a stray because I fed her. That’s how the cat distribution system works as we know. She picked my husband, who professed to hate cats, as her person and he was won over pretty quickly. Tootsie was his baby and I was merely the person who fed her, gave her her medicine (she developed hyperthyroid disease at a fairly young age) and took her to the vet on the reg. Gizzy came from the shelter as was all mine. We love them and they in return deign to tolerate us on their terms. Their lives are way too short and ours are so empty without them. Thank you for giving those furbabies such a good life. They all deserve nothing less.
Professor Bigfoot
I’m so sorry, Tom.
And someone’s chopping onions around here.
Satanley (aka weasel)
Aw, that sucks :(
I’ve enjoyed the pictures of Tikka over the years. Thank you for sharing the all the joy and now the sorrow. That was a very moving tribute. My deepest sympathy.
Quiltingfool
I’m so sorry. Tikka loved you and you loved him; and he lived a good life with you. I know what it’s like to lose your heart cat and I feel for you.
Planetjanet
My deepest condolences. That was a very moving tribute.
Joy in FL
I am so sorry. Tikka, the magnificent, is somewhere else, judging and making that place more regal.
I love the photos you shared. Thank you for that.
My own tuxedo cat is squished right up next to me in my chair. Maybe that’s why I couldn’t stop my tears as I read your post. I’m so sorry for the absence Tikka leaves in you.
MoCaAce
So sorry. That was Beautifully written. You brought me right back to when I was holding my Butters on the floor of the vets office… now the tears flow and my new pup Coco is looking at me with concern.
Old School
I’m tearing up reading this and I never met Tikka.
My condolences to you, Champ, and anyone else that will miss that great cat.
stinger
So very sorry, and what a beautiful tribute. I lost my cat, aged 16, last year, and much of what you describe, both in younger life and near the end, was true for my Gina.
CaseyL
Oh, Tom. Oh, no.
I gasped when I saw the title, and am tearing up now.
Tikka was a cat in a million, maybe one in ten million. Majestic, a character, indomitable, and always His Own Cat.
As someone who had to say goodbye to a much-beloved cat not long ago, I condole and sympathize and feel for you (and for Champ, who will be missing him horribly, too!) so much.
So very, very sorry.
rikyrah
I’m so sorry for your loss.
Tikka knew love. You gave Tikka tons of love, which is all a pet owner can want to do.
BigJimSlade
Aw, geez, I’m so sorry. Going through that is so hard. You know where they usually are and you expect to see them there, in many places in the house, even though you know they’re gone. I started just silently saying “hi” or “thanks” when that would happen to me after previous cats, trying to be appreciative the time we had.
Our cat (peeking over Half Dome in one of the calendars) has been getting chemo for a year and a half (now down to just once a month). The cancer is in remission, so we’re appreciating this extra time. No one knows when it will come back, but if she makes it a few more years she may reach 17 like Tikka did. I just picked her up and put her on my lap :-)
Mai Naem mobile
I’m sorry Tom. That’s a nice remembrance of Tikka. In your pics Tikka came across as a big muscular guy with an attitude.
BigJimSlade
@FastEdD: Yeah, that can be hard to do, but I think it’s the best way to go.
prostratedragon
What can I say? Tikka was clearly a great spirit. My condolences to you on his loss.
ThresherK
Condolences from our home to yours. I say that having been preferred staff and food dispenser to a black-over-white pink-nosed cat myself. This part is particularly familiar.
Tom Levenson
Thanks to everyone. This community helps lots of people and it’s a comfort to me now.
I’m going to be AFK for a few hours, but I will be reading every message with gratitude.
Best,
Tom
wmd
Champ is a key player right now – the love you show her in your mutual grief will elevate both of your spirits.
I was talking with a friend of 40+ years yesterday that had a similar loss that day. It prompted me to pull up this poem (I may have copied it from Balloon Juice back in April 2017):
I hope it helps you. I think it did when I read it to my friend.
Josie
My condolences on your loss. I know exactly how devastating this is.
comrade scotts agenda of rage
As fellow animal nuts, we like to share in the joy as well as the sorrow of having these creatures in our lives for an ever so brief period.
Losing them is never easy and it never gets easier.
I know as humans we’re wired somehow to believe in an afterlife so I always imagine our pets are out there somewhere, either waiting for us or floating along supported by the love we gave them during their lifetime.
And the loving memories we carry with us until we’re gone.
TaMara
It is clear, Tikki had a wonderful life. He loved and was loved. There were pets and treats and sunspots in which to lie. No cat could ask for more.
But we sure could, a little more time, another headbutt, another rumble of purring as we stroke their soft fur.
I am so sorry for your loss. It’s never enough time. He was magnificent.
I’ll be snuggling my feline crew a little tighter tonight in his honor.
ETA: As you have said that there will be another cat at some point, I look forward to seeing who Tikki leads to your door. Because was all know that’s how it happens.
BeautifulPlumage
Ah, so sad, Condolences, Tikka was a great kitty.
sralloway
So sorry for your loss. Your telling of his last night was touching. It reminded me of our Mr. Lucky when his health was failing. Thank you for sharing.
H.E.Wolf
Warmest sympathies. May his memory be for a blessing.
dww44
We lost our 16 year old tuxedo couple of years ago. We were adopted by her as she just showed up unannounced when she was about 6 months old. For that reason and others I’ve always enjoyed your posts about Tika and am so sorry for your loss.
schrodingers_cat
I loved Tikka and I will miss him. He sounds like my heart kitteh. Who has been gone for over 3 years now but I still miss him. Boss Cat Yogi was 19 and 1/2
sphex
I teared up, too. I’m so sorry for your devastating loss, Tom. This is hands-down the hardest part of loving our pets as fiercely as we do, and Tikka clearly deserved every last bit of your love… and in his way loved you magnificently in return. There may always be a Tikka-shaped hole in your heart, but I hope the happy memories soon crowd out the pain of the loss.
One of the Many Jens
I am so sorry, I’ve loved hearing about the Lord of All He Surveys from afar. Best wishes to you and all those in Tikka’s domain.
peter
Thank you Tom for that eloquent and moving account of your life with Tikka. Companions like Tikka are a great blessing and I hope your memories of your 17 years with him buoy you up in this hard time.
Noskilz
So sorry you have lost a dear pet.
Sis
I am so, so sorry.
jackmac
So sorry for your loss. Seventeen years is a great run, but I know that’s no solace as you said goodbye.
One of your Tikka photos made me smile. The one with the stare. I know that look from my current guy, Rocco, and I laugh at him when I get it. I hope photos like that and others you’ve posted will eventually make you smile too.
wombat probability cloud
What a loss. But you gave each other a fabulous 17 years, a long run for any cat and especially one with a hard start in life. You may have commented on this before but was his name Finnish?
Miss Bianca
@TaMara: It certainly happens with dogs that way. Lately, whenever I have had a dog pass, somehow, another turns up almost immediately as if sent to me by my former doggo. And strangely, the new one somehow seems to share some of the behavorial and character traits of the one who has gone on, as if they were saying, “HERE…you want to go HERE. Trust me, I know.”
Still wish I could have another cat, tho. My Queen Mab lived to 18, and she was a lady, there is no other word for her. Still miss her after all these years.
ErikaF
I’m so sorry – it’s the hardest and kindest thing we can do for our furbabies. He had such a British upper crust judgemental stare, too. You gave him a good life of love and safety and appreciation for his ways and foibles. No kitty could ask for more.
I had to put my practically silent Siamese to sleep on Saturday – a good boy who missed the classes on licking and Siamese yowling as a kitten. Cancer sucks.
SiubhanDuinne
satby
Deepest condolences on the loss of Tikka. What a beautiful eulogy for your friend. You gave him a well loved life after a hard start, and his devotion to you showed his joy and gratitude. He will be missed.
M31
so sorry to hear that
we should all be so lucky to be judged by such a one
Tenar Arha
My condolences. ( You’ve got me tearing up here waiting for Sinners to start). Farewell and adieu to Tikka.
Trivia Man
That magnificent nose is unforgettable. Sometimes when i think “balloon juice”, that nose is the picture in my head.
Ben Cisco
So sorry for your loss. May his memory be a blessing.
twbrandt
I’m so sorry, Tom. That’s so hard.
It’s funny how much emotional and psychic space a 12 pound ball of fur occupies, but they do. And when they are gone they leave a huge hole in your heart.
BretH
Thank you for sharing that. We have two very old cats and I know we don’t have that much longer with them either but we treasure every day.
Di
I’m so sorry, Tom.
Anne Laurie
Deepest condolences. May his memory long continue to be a blessing.
lowtechcyclist
We always know when we bring a cat into our lives that they’ll almost surely leave this world before we do. But that never makes it any easier when it finally happens.
Farewell, Tikka. You are missed.
CarolPW
Tikka had the best face, and you always posted great photos of him. So sorry for the loss – even though we love them all, some losses hit way harder than others. Hope you and Champ can comfort each other.
Scuffletuffle
Rest in peace handsome Tikka. My sympathies to all who knew you…
Math Guy
So sorry for your loss. We’ve been there; it hurts, but the love and memory of the companionship stays with us forever.
Ohio Mom
So, so sorry. He was a great cat and you were a great cat dad to him.
CatRadio
A fine tribute. I admired Tikka from the safety of the screens between us. Love that you were so generous as to lie on the floor and let the tears come freely. Not a dry eye in the house, Tom.
Chief Oshkosh
They wrap their paws around your heart, and that’s that.
BruceFromOhio
Sorry for the departure of your friend. A great cat with a great name.
And thank you for such a heartfelt post with wonderful pictures.
Andrya
I’m so sorry. I’ve been through this 16 times, and it never gets easier. May his memory be a blessing.
TadoDad
That is a really lovely tribute to your friend, what a lucky thing for both of you that you found each other. One of the things I love about this blog is the sagas of people’s pets, and I have always enjoyed your periodic updates on Mr. Tikka. I am really sorry for your loss, goodbyes are always so hard.
Another Scott
I’m very sorry, Tom. :-(
Thank you for sharing him with us.
Condolences to you and yours and to everyone who loved him.
Best wishes,
Scott.
Quantum man
I am so sorry. It is so hard to lose them.
Lily
I loved every picture you posted of him over the years. Also something about each time his name appeared in one of your sentences.
All my sympathy.
Virginia
I am so sorry, Tom. Tikka was a wonderful one of a kind kitty. It’s a lovely relationship you two had.
Betty Cracker
Damn. What a beautiful tribute to Tikka. You are a fine writer, Tom.
I never met Tikka, but it’s jarring to learn that he’s gone. Tikka was abstract for me — I only knew him from your vivid descriptions — but he was a fact, like the Great Sphinx.
I always admired the symmetry of the white fur patch on his nose, an echo of the pyramids. May his memory be a blessing.
KBS
Oh no, I’m so sorry to hear that. I always loved seeing his pictures here. We’ve lost two of our kitties in the last year, and I’m worried about another one. It just sucks, every time. May his memory be a blessing to you.
Elizabelle
Damn. That cat had presence. He enjoyed his life with you. My condolences, Tom.
Mike in oly
So very sorry for the loss of your sweet Tikka.
LAC
What a lovely tribute to your baby. I still miss mine and am not sure about a new boo yet. My condolences 🥺😇
sab
Tikka had the most perfect nose markings that I have ever seen on a tuxedo cat.
zhena gogolia
I am so sorry. Beautiful tribute.
Bulgakov
What a loving tribute to Tikka, Tom. So sorry for the empty space in your home & heart right now.
JCJ
Your Tikka makes me think of our old cat Peaches. We got him for my daughter when she was 9 years old. It was during a tumultuous time with my wife’s health. My daughter called him her writing buddy because she is a night owl by nature and would study or write late at night with him at her side. I was the lowest of the three humans on his list, but when I would leave in the morning he always came to meet me at the bottom of the stairs and would watch me drive away (it just occurred to me that maybe he wanted to make sure I was gone!)
There was a period of time when my wife was visiting family for three months while my daughter was in college so it was just the two of us. He then must have figured that I was his only human option so he would sit with me. I still think of him often. He had a wonderful purr which was the best thing to hear when going to sleep. He eventually got ill and went from a rather meaty kitty to one made of Styrofoam as he lost weight. Just as we were reaching the decision to contact the vet he passed one night. We now have two cats, one of which has chosen my daughter as his human while the other has chosen my wife. Neither cares for me much wich simply shows they have excellent judgment.
Embra
I’m so very glad for the time that Tikka shared with you. Thanks for giving him such a good home.
Odie Hugh Manatee
Drowning here. I am so sorry for your loss. I have always thought Tikka had a magnificent schnoz and was a handsome guy though I have always had a soft spot for Sylvester cats(as I call them). I can relate to being ‘their’ human, I have two that do that with me and it’s an honor to be there for them. One is 13 now and while still healthy, I dread what I know is coming one day. I’ll be there for him but it will hurt.
Rest in peace, Tikka. My condolences to you and your family, Tom.
neabinorb
I know exactly how you feel. The love doesn’t end.
SW
My deepest condolences. No one who hasn’t had that sort of relationship with a cat, one that claims you as his or her own can understand what it is like when it comes to an end. I have been partial to Siamese or Thai cats for that reason. They tend to be one person cats. That’s why they have a reputation for being mean. It’s not true it’s just that if you are not their person they would prefer that you don’t fuck with them. I have found that the only thing that fills that void when they are gone is a kitten.
Scamp Dog
So sorry to read of your loss! I always enjoyed the pictures you posted of Tikka, and the stories you told about him. May his memory be a blessing, as other have stated before me.
Sister Golden Bear
I’m so sorry. Rest in peace, Tikka. May his memory be a blessing.
Lochnessmom
Oh, Tom. You were so very fortunate to share his life for so long. May his memory bring you comfort.
Miss Bianca
All these photos are great, but Tikka as the Blur of Outrage is my favorite. It makes me LOL, even tho’ I’m sure I would have been terrified to have occasioned it!
And the one of him cuddling with Champ, his Mini-Me, is awfully sweet. Such a character he was.
Jim Appleton
What a bond, and fond farewell.
NutmegAgain
I’m so sorry to hear that Tikka has gone. I’m sure it’s an enormous loss. Maybe take comfort in knowing you gave him the best possible life, and that’s no small thing. Sending comfort & compassion.
NeenerNeener
I’m so sorry, Tom.
Elizabelle
@Odie Hugh Manatee: Sylvester cats! Very much.
Tikka was majestic.
mrmoshpotato
Sorry for your loss, Tom. Thanks for sharing Tikka with us.
Freemark
So sorry for your loss. The pain sucks but it let’s us know just how awesome they were. I’ve never thought it wasn’t worth it and, from all your Tikka reports, I’m sure you feel the same.
Bunter
I’m so very sorry. He was such a character and it was so lovely to read about him. Thank you for sharing him.
Ghost of Joe Lebling´s Dog.
I’m so sorry, Tom. The cats I’ve known well always made it clear that they were choosing to be with the people they liked — I’ve never had the experience of being the only person, though. That sounds like a real honor. I’m glad you were there to be chosen.
Again, deeply sorry — deep, deep sympathy.
SteveinPHX
Very sorry you have lost a steady friend. Best wishes.
WTFGhost
Poor Tikka. Every now and then, I look at my cats, and I remember, I “buy” their life (with care, not money to a rescue/shelter), but that means buying their death, as well, and sometimes it seems almost not worth it, the great sadness, the giant emptiness, that exists once they’re gone.
Eventually, the hole closes some, and things do get better, but OMG, this was one of the most beautiful, heartfelt, and yet gloriously painful partings possible. I hope it helps cleanse the injury, so it heals cleanly. Be well, and, when you can, be happy.
tobie
What a great cat. A true friend and companion. I’m so sorry for your loss.
PBK
A magnificent tribute to a much loved companion. My condolences to you all.
eclare
I am so sorry.
Layer8Problem
So many heartfelt words above for your wonderful friend. I don’t know what to add except to say I’m so very sorry.
thalarctosMaritimus
I’m so sorry, Tom. Your post moved me to tears. I remember meeting Tikka briefly on a Zoom meet-up; he emanated nobility.
DanB
I teared up reading your beautifully written post. We’re gearing up to giving up a beautiful cat who is not adapting out two cats. She’s getting more terrified of them. It’s likely to be tough on us.
AliceBlue
My condolences to you and all who loved Tikka.
MazeDancer
Oh, Tom, Abundant condolences. Had the obligatory, “No, not Tikka!” reaction.
So very sorry.
It is kitten season. You could get two. Or another noble grown-up to honor Sir T.
But frm personal experience, can vouch the only thing that even dulls the pain is getting more cats.
Heidi Mom
I’m so very sorry for your loss.
daize
Oh, Tom. So sorry for your loss. He was a magnificent boy and a great friend. Thinking of you.
Helena J Montana
I am so sorry. The loss of a dear old friend is hard to endure. Tika will live forever in your heart and fond memories.
Ruckus
Difficult to lose a close friend of such a long time.
Because that is what pets become, a friend, a companion. My last pet was an obnoxious male cocker spaniel, who thought he owned the world. He owned mine. I called him ornery bastard. Because he acted like one. But he was also a great pet in many ways. His personality was like he was royalty, which is also how he walked. About 2 weeks after rescuing him and his sleeping in the far corner of the room he came over and plopped down next to me. And did so from then on. He’s gone now. Somehow the world doesn’t seem the same. Because it isn’t.
artem1s
Tikka had a magnificent nose. Very regal. Seeing his picture in your posts felt a bit like Alistair Cook inviting us in to Masterpiece Theater. So sorry for your loss.
Drunkenhausfrau
My deepest condolences. They break our hearts, but only because they fill them first. May you hold Tikka close in your memories.
Nukular Biskits
Tom, I know this sounds trite but I share your grief.
And not that you need any confirmation from me, but you did the right thing. And I’m sure Tikka would have approved … although it might be hard to judge that from his no-bullshit expression.
Sure Lurkalot
Tikka was magnificent and wise to own you so deeply and fully. I’m so sorry for your loss.
Tazj
I’m so sorry. Tikka was a beautiful cat.
Captain C
Tikka was an excellent, gorgeous cat and he hit the jackpot with his human. You gave him a wonderful life and I hope over time his memory brings joy.
And like my late tuxie Misty, his nose is fantastic :^)
Just Visiting
Tom, I’m so sorry – I always admired Tikka and his distinguished profile 💔
KRK
So sorry for the loss of your magnificent companion. It hurts all the more when you’re their special human. Thank you for sharing him with us.
scav
We the surveyed and undoubtedly found wanting will nevertheless miss the gaze. Even if it was digital and somewhat indirect. Majestic beast.
HinTN
Tom – May Tikka’s memory be a blessing and lighten your days when the grieving passes.
There’s always The Incredible String Band: youtu.be/jmeGpov2P5k?feature=shared
In other news, my copy of So Very Small arrived today. YAY
Chacal Charles Calthrop
So sorry. You have my condolences. I was once owned by a very imperious cat named Coco, a wonderfully intelligent cat who had been through more than one household because she needed to be the Boss of All and loved to get outside to hunt. My apartment had access to an enclosed outdoor space visited by birds so she wound up with me. I, and my other cat, were her minions. She knew her name so I didn’t change it but I decided it should be spelled Ko-ko after the Lord High Executioner in the Mikado since that suited her better.
There’s a wall fresco in an Egyptian tomb showing a cat with one bird in its hind claws, another in its front paws, and a third in its mouth: bmimages.com/preview.asp?image=00228264001. After being owned by Ko-ko, I knew this was her definition of paradise. She was definitely a reincarnation of that cat.
Let everyone in your personal circle know that you lost a cat, and the cat distribution system will find you. The thought of Ko-ko now brings a smile to my face instead of a tear.
Antonius
So sorry, Tom.
Pauline
Tom, I am so sorry. Tikka was a beautiful boy and you’re right, he had the best nose. You gave him a wonderful life.
Barbarai
Tom — I am so sorry for you. There is something about the cats who choose YOU as their human beings — you feel honored and, at the same time, a great sense of responsibility that you continue to earn their choice. Clearly Tikka chose you and you never let him down. Another cat in the future helps to ease the ache (and I think Champ may need somebody), but the ache will always be there. You can’t love a cat without that cat becoming a part of you.
A woman from anywhere (formerly Mohagan)
Ooh Tom, I’m so sorry! Even when you know it’s coming, it’s terrible. May Tikka’s memory be a blessing. I too have had elderly cats slip away almost immediately after the second shot. It lets you know it was definitely time. I’m glad you’ve got Champ
ETA the post was so evocative and the pictures wonderful.
Realworldrj
So sorry.
Citizen Scientist
No words Tom. 😢 condolences to you all.
Romeo24
I’m so sorry to read about the passing of the majestic, incomparable Tikka, Tom. You were a gift to each other. Thank you for sharing your gift with us. He will be greatly missed.
Darkrose
I’m so sorry about Tikka’s loss, Tom. He was a joy to hear about, and he will be missed.
chrisanthemama
The more we know people, the more we love our fur-babies. May his memory be a blessing, and know that his spirit is still lurking around that corner of your bed, purring mightily.
DEBG
So very sorry. He had a fantastic life with you. But they always leave us too soon.
Kate in Oregon
To be chosen as his human.
With tearful sadness and appreciation for sharing such love.
John S.
I’m so sorry about the loss of your cat. I hope you have some fond memories of him to help you through this sad time. Pets are a blessing.
Medicine Man
My condolences. It is very hard to lose a cat. No good way, in fact.
Paul in KY
My condolences, Tom. Wish I’d met him. Beautiful cat. You gave him a wonderful life and at the end you were the best owner you can be and released him from his pain.
Ann Marie
My condolences on the loss of such a magnificent cat. It’s so hard to let them go. Each time I have had to do that for a cat of mine, I immediately thought “I want to take it back” right after, but we have to do the best thing for our loved one. Extra hugs to Champ, who will be missing his friend.
Gary Trauner
I’m so sorry Tom. Our Lynx is not there yet but getting older. I’m her hooman, and I dread what is inevitably coming down the pike, even if it’s not for a while. Purr well, Tikka…
tam1MI
I am sorry to hear of the loss of your beloved Tikka, Tom. May his memory always bring you happiness.
seefleur
So very sorry for Tikka’s passing. For being smallish critters, our fur companions sure leave large holes in our hearts. We lost our Gizmo (he could have been Tikka’s all-black Maine brother in demeanor) at the start of the year – I still find myself waiting for him to jump onto his spot on the bed. Mayhem seems to still miss his partner in crime, to the point of not taking over Gizmo’s favorite afternoon napping spot. Give Champ some extra loves until you find your (and his) next fur friend.
Bex
“And when your sorrow is comforted (time heals all sorrows)
you will be content that you have known me.”
–Antione de Saint-Exupery The Little Prince
Bex
jame
That was a beautifully written tribute — I’m sorry that your friend is gone
Armadillo
I’m so very sorry for your loss, Tom. This was a beautiful tribute. May his memory be a blessing.
Westyny
I mostly lurk, but emerging to say how deeply I feel this. I’ve never been able to replace my genius cat. Glad there’s one still there for you. You sound like a good cat dad.
NotoriousJRT
I’m so very sorry for the hole you feel in your heart and life from losing Tikka. It is plain to see that he was no ordinary cat – no ordinary friend. I wish you comfort and another friend for you and champ when you are ready. Thanks for sharing him today and in the past. I’ll stop crying now…
Wolvesvalley
I’m so sorry to know that Tikka has purred his last purr for you. Sending you hugs, and giving my kitties extra hugs tonight.
Phishwu
Tom, so sorry for your loss. I know how hard it is. We recently lost our dear Sam, on Valentine’s Day no less. I was holding him as he passed. We were so hopeful that he would respond to treatment. He had severe anemia from a bad infection but recovered months earlier. It came back and he declined quickly. We were devastated. He was a central part of our family. We recently welcomed a new rescue and it took us a bit to find the right one. Saw his picture on Petfinder and knew he was the right one. I hope you find the right one when you are ready.
Mike S
I’m so so sorry about this. I let my little man go in September and I felt so many of the same things again as I read this. So fuck you, thank you and again I am so so sorry you’ve lost him.
Leto
I’m so sorry, Tom. This is a beautiful tribute to a loving family member.
CliosFanboy
I am so sorry. What a wonderful kitty and friend. 😞
Msb
Thanks for sharing Tikka with us over the years.
I hope the knowledge that you gave him such a good life will be a comfort to you.
HumboldtBlue
Bye, Tikka.
cain
I read your post to the end, with tears in my eyes. I have 4 of my kitties next to me. goodbye Tikka. Return in another lifetime.
Rose Judson
I’m so sorry to read this. Tikka was a discerning gentleman, and your love for him so evident.
Ms. Deranged in AZ
I’m so sorry for your loss. I know how hard it is to say good bye to our fur babies.
Juju
I’m so sad to hear about Tikka. If I could have a cat, it would be a tuxedo cat, but I am very allergic. For that reason I really looked forward to and enjoyed your posts that had pictures and stories about Tikka. He was a beautiful boy and I will miss stories about him. Give Champ a hug for me.
Nancy
I am sad for you. You give your cats a good life with love and care. You both were fortunate to have found each other. I am remembering my cat losses. This allows me to believe that I’m grieving with you. It’s just that way with people who are able to love their cats.
Chat Noir
I am so sorry for your loss; reading your lovely tribute to Tikka has caused watery eyes. Cats truly are magic!
My cat is almost 17 and I know every day with him is a gift but I dread what’s inevitably going to come.
Soprano2
I’m so sorry, Tom. It’s hard to lose them no matter the circumstances. Tikka was a cool cat. That stare…..
brantl
Sorry to learn about your loss, Tom. I hope your other cat bouys you up, in your loss.
arrieve
I’m so late to the thread, but want to add my condolences. Tikka had such a splendid face–I never met him but I can tell that was one formidable kitty. Thank you for sharing pictures of him through the years and letting us grieve with you now.
Davis X. Machina
Sorry for your trouble, as my Irish gran always said.
PIGL
I just found out about this at the other place…. I always enjoyed your photos and stories of Tikka. I wish I’d had the chance to be mauled. I’m very sorry for your loss.
Spinoza Is My Co-pilot
Sorry, man. Sad when our furry children leave us, I know.
b
Very sorry. Losing a friend a always hard
Stephen
So sorry – I’ve lost my two boys over the past couple of years, and it was devastating. Have debated getting more, but if they live well, I’ll be in my late 70s when it’s their turn to die. He was a grand and noble moggie.
Chris T.
A best cat
Embeds himself in your heart
Making it a little bit bigger
But when he’s gone
There’s a hole in the world
Eventually you realize
It’s a hole in your heart
Shaped like a cat
Sherparick
I had to wait a bit to respond Tom. Tikka was a wonderful & beautiful cat. His memory will be a blessing, but that does not take away the pain of parting with him.
Nelson
Sound like he was a great companion for you.
Manyakitty
Not sure if you’ll see this very late note, but what a wonderful tribute to a majestic man cat. I’m sobbing into my 17 year-old Manya’s fur in Tikka’s noble memory. Sending love to all who knew him.
Gloria DryGarden
Moved to tears by your beautiful writing about your companion. it brings it all back, decades ago when my bossy black and white cat declined and died.
What cut the deepest, after the time of keening, was looking for him every day in all his usual places, esp at the door when I came home. Where was he? It was a strange indelible time, and it takes awhile.