I decided today that I needed to go to counseling so I called and made an appointment for early next week. I need to get ahead of this and handle it the best way, and it’s not fair to the people around me for me to be running around as a walking raw nerve and fucking hot mess.
I am so tired- feel like I have lead weights on every portion of my body and just can’t sleep enough. Everything feels dull and colorless- like I crossed the border from West to East Germany in the mid 70’s.
On the upside, I don’t have much of an appetite so maybe I can finagle some weight loss for fatty out of this.